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Sparkles the dolphin :)

  Sometimes life is beautiful. Like something out of one of Taylor Swift happy songs. That would be today. I might be sunburned, I might have blisters on my feet bad enough I can't walk, but this really sweet guy paid for me to win a small tie-dyed stuffed dolphin and suddenly everythig is worthwhile. I had a great time tonight.

  Residents life here on campus took us to the zoo and to an amusement park. I got tons of pictures from the zoo but what was the most fun was hanging out with my friend Daniel while also hanging out with my friends Kendra and Jennifer. I got sunburned, foot blistered, and a tie-dyed dolphin named sparkles. Daniels idea. :)

  After a long but great day. I am skipping the dinner I never had tonight and am going straight to bed. This has been beautiful. Goodnight world. Buenas Noches. No tengo un novio. But I had a great night. Goodnight. :)

Stay awesome. Yada yada yada. Stay you. And you already know I'm gonna say to keep on expecting the unexpected.

 
 

  Sick as a dog this morning, and nothing's going right. I can't find any clothes and I can't find my shower shoes. All of this is almost enough to make me say screw it; it's not worth getting out of bed. But I can't do that. This made me realize something. We all are gonna have days where the sun doesn't shine or our class won't be cancelled no matter how much you wish it would be. But you gotta suck it up and do the responsible thing. Don't say screw it I'm not going. Say "I accept your challange!!!!" What I'm trying to say is that we all go through trials and tribulations. It's what we do when life totally sucks and you don't know when you'll see the light at the end of the tunnel that really matters.

  Thank you for letting me share that with you. I hope that it helped someone as much as I needed someone to say it to me this morning and all I heard was silence. Good morning. Have a fabulous day. God Bless. And always expect the unexpected. ;)

Love Always,

        Dayna

 
 

  Sometimes things happen in life that down right sucks. For instance. This week I am pretty sure I have had a stomach bug since Saturday. But there's nothing that I can do but wait this out.

  I just wanted to let y'all know that I didn't drop off the face of the planet again. I just went home for spring break. I earned a little money, had some disagreements and now I'm back at my beloved campus.

  Sometimes life sucks but you can't quit living because of that fact. Because life goes on whether you like it or not. As long as there is a little bit of hope in the world it can move mountains. A little hope goes a long way.

  This is it for now. Expect the unexpected. Yada yada yada. Please pray for me to get better. I'm going through some bad stomach bug issues. I haven't had it this bad since I had cyclospora.

Peace out. :)

 
 

  I am done crying. No more tears for the impossible. Life is worth living and for once that statement is not about a guy. Okay maybe it's a little bit about a guy but let me explain. A friend told me that it was obvious to everyone but me that this guy liked me. I still don't see it but that could be because I am not really paying much attention to guys these days or crossed tracks with this guy this year.

  It started me to wondering when I became so unobservant. When did I become so blind to the world that I couldn't see what was "right in front of me"?

  Okay to a new subject that hasn't been brought up in a little while. College!!!! Spring Break is coming up!!!! St. Patricks Day is coming up!!!! While I'm not too excited about st. Patricks day; I am looking forward to the possibility that I might be working during all of this. It totally excites me!!!!

  I think that what I most am excited for is the chance to see my family and my dove again. It seems like a lifetime since I saw them last. I love them and miss them all more than I guess I ever let them know. Those of you in my family out there reading this, I love you!

  Okay it is beginning to get late. I had better hit the hay. Or rehit it seeing that I have already been asleep for three hours. Okay love y'all. Stay awesome and expect the unexpected! :)

Love Always,

Dayna <3

 
 

  My life is complicated. That's clear to see. But it is so messed up when I cry over two different guys during the run of 6 songs on a cd. The first thing I cried about was a song that made me think about my latest heartbreak. He didn't like me and I honestly was a little obsessed with him. I now know what my thing was. He helped me feel better after a breakup with my ex. So I clung to the one that I thought understood me. It wasn't meant to be. I understand that fact now.

  The other song made me think of my ex. It was this line.

"We were picture perfect. Flawless on the surface. We were walking on a straight line. We were automatic. You seemed so fanatic. I was confident and wide eyed. Tough times watched us come undone."

  This was what killed me. It was something that I needed to hear but I didn't need to either.

  I bet you all are wondering why I am telling you all this. I am finding clarity. I realize something tonight. I am not over my ex and I had no business trying to force myself into a new relationship when everything still reminds me of him.

  I know that I broke up with him and therefore I have no right to cry and mope around about it but honestly it has been extremely hard on me to overcome this heartbreak. I still love him and I think honestly that there will always be a part of me that will always love him. First love. First proposal. First real breakup. First heartbreak. It is tough on anyone and anyone would remember him. Life would not be the same without knowing him and honestly I wouldn't want to change all the things that we did. I wouldn't take back our time spent together for anything in the world.

  What I hope that you come away from this entry is that everyone has that first heartache. Everyone remembers the one that was the first love. It's alright to admit that you still have a place in your heart for him. That doesn't mean that you're gonna run back to him begging for him to take you back. I know I'm kind of babbling but what I'm trying to convey here is that I know it is hard. But the good thing is that you are not as alone as you might feel.

  To those out there who are suffering their first heartbreaks: trust me. It will get better. There is someone out there for you. But God only gives them to you when it is the right time. And sometimes you have to go through a little heartbreak to appreciate the things that you have in life.

  I know that is probably not what you wanted to hear right now but it is what you need to hear.

  Just remember. I am not alone. Repeat after me. I AM NOT ALONE. Doesn't that make you feel better? Okay. So I am not an award winning psychologist but I am a woman who has loved and lost.    

  Everything happens for a reason. And God never gives you more than you can handle. Thank you for always coming back to my site. Stay awesome and remember to expect the unexpected. I'm gonna try to be back more frequently from now on. Deal? Shake my imaginary hand if you agree. Lol jk

  Life is sometimes difficult and downright sucks. But it doesn't have to suck. Your life can be beautiful. But sometimes you can't see the big picture until you take a step back from all the heartache and tears for a minute.

  See I told you that my life was complicated. I have to come to this site myself to get some perspective. Keep coming back. It's not always heartbreak. Sometimes it's dreams or reality vs. fantasy. Love y'all!

Expect the Unexpected!

~Dayna

 
 

  I used to wonder what all those soppy love songs you hear on the radio were all about. Then it happened. I fell in love. And I finally understood what it meant to not care if you were pork as long as you had that one special person right there beside you. I thought that that was everything. I thought that I would have that forever. He was my soul mate. But then one thing lead to another and now we no longer are in communication. He quit calling me for 3 months and I refused to talk to him after that. It's been since September and I still haven't talked to him. But the thing is that no matter what I do; I think about him at least one time every single day. No matter what I say; I still love him and there will always be a part of me that will love him. But there is no going back to that. There is no way to make a u-turn and go back to him. I have definitely burned that bridge. That saddens me. For a long time we were drifting apart and we would have a fight and break off our engagement or put back our wedding day. No matter what happened there always seemed to be something standing in our way.

  That's when I contracted a major case of the "what if's". What if he and I were just meant to be best friends? What if I pushed so hard because I was so low down on the self esteem totum pole that I could barely breathe? What I so desperate for someone to love me that I just forced myself to love someone that wasn't meant for me? Doubt slipped into our lives and I'd push back the date again. My friends said that he wasn't going to wait forever. I guess that part of me didn't want him to. I think that somewhere deep down inside; I wanted him to give up on me so it didn't hurt so bad for me to give up on him. I pushed a great guy away. And for that I am Truely sorry. I never meant to hurt him but I am sure that I did. And that kills me on the inside. I am Truely sorry.

  But life moves on. I thought that I had met a guy. This was actually the guy that helped me get over the breakup. I was vulnerable and I attached myself to him. I tried to latch on and no matter how much I wanted to be in his world; I couldn't change the fact that he was never going to return those feelings. And now that amazing guy likes someone else. As much as it kills me to see them together; I know that he wasn't meant for me. I mean he says that he still wants to be friends with me. I have literally never had a friend that was a guy before. I guess that this is just going to have to be a new chapter in my life.

  This brings me to the topic of today's entry. Heartbreak. Heartbreak. Broken hearts. We all have these stories about the one that got away or the one who broke your heart or who you broke their hearts. Life is a heartbreak after another. But it's what you do during these times that you hurt that matters. It's what you do when you're happy and in love that matters as well.

  What I am trying to tell you is that everything is going to be okay. I know that that probably sounds a little on the corny side of town but I am going to leave you with this quote that has always gotten me through the day. God will never give you more than you can handle. That was what got me through the heartache and the tears. It might hurt now but God is going to see me through the pain and I know that he will not forsake you either. This is it for now. Stay amazing, watch The Lego Movie, oh and always remember to expect the unexpected.

( Man that Lego movie was pretty unexpected wasn't it? Lol. It's awesome. I have seen it 3 times. I totally recommend it.)

Oh and one last thing. . .

SPACESHIP!!!!!!

 
 

  Hey y'all. It's finally me again. I've been away for a while and I know that you know it but what you don't know is that my life was pretty uneventful in the fact that I didn't do much to report.

  I was pretty sure that you didn't need to hear all the reasons that sleep is both a beautiful and a terrible thing. Am I right? Lol.

  Monday my best friend/twin sister Khelsea came and visited (and did the graduation stuff that she needed to get done) and we hung out for hours. Then we went to see The Lego Movie. Okay. Let me tell you this. If you haven't seen this movie I totally recomend the movie. It's so funny that it makes me happy. This movie was the best and longest Lego advertisement that I have ever seen. Meaning that it made , me, my BFF/sister Jessi, my roommate Kendra, and my BFF/twin Khelsea; all want to buy Legos. But alas. It requires the possession of money to exchange for Legos. But someday I will have me some Legos! Someday I will be able to pay! Lol

  Yesterday seems so far away already. I went to class even though I grumbled and griped. I didn't feel good at all. (Don't feel good today but I have to be a responsible college student af set a good example for my roommate) Was late for class but it turned out that it didn't matter. The proffessor emailed everyone and said she was going to be late as well. So I still walked in on schedule. Lol

  Then we went to the library and researched the history of the town I am in and we tried to find a picture that we could sketch something resembling it and make a mural for a local bank. Excitement. Too bad I did not find what I was looking for. *Sad face* oh well I'll get over it. I'll figure something out. Then she let us out of class early so I went back to my room and watched an episode of paranormal witness online on my phone. Man I tell you that I love daily motion. They are the bomb digity. In other words. They make me happy. Lol

  Then I went and ate lunch and waited for a friend who didn't come. So I took her chocolate and chocolate milk. This was a long arse day. It seems like I should've taken two days to do all this stuff. Lol

  Then I went back to my room and slept for a little while and then I had to get ready for my night class. Personal safety is the funniest class ever and it's sad that it's gonna be over so soon. But then again. It's out with the basic and in with the intermediate! Lol

  I caught a ride back from class with my friend Jess and I watched tv, played sims, and when she got back from where she was, we went to the cstore and got food and went back to her room and watched tv and talked until my roommate and I got tired and decide to go to bed. Then I found that my phone charger broke so I had to rearrange some stuff and put my clock bed so I could charge it that way. Thank God for my daddy getting that for me for my birthday so long ago! Love you daddy!

  Then it was lights out and now I am awake and should be getting ready to go to class but I would rather be right here with my awesome readers. I'm exhausted, my head hurts, and if I didn't know any better I would say I have a hangover. But no alcoholic beverages were consumed by me last night. That is one thing you dot have to worry about. Lol

  Okay this is it for now. Time to be a responsible college student. Love y'all lots. Stay amazing. And always remember that some of the most amazing things are the unexpected. So expect the unexpected.

Love,

Dayna

 
 

  Sometimes things happen that are outside our control. There's no one to blame. That's just the way that it is. I recently had my heart broken and that's okay. I realized that I am a strong individual and I don't need a guy in my life to be happy. I am okay. Dreams are hard to get rid of and times are difficult to make yourself not dream of them. But eventually you are going to be okay and there will come a day when you don't think about them. Then you'll feel guilty that you didn't think about them for a while but there will come another day when your heart won't ache every single time you think of the one that hurt you without knowing it.

  I just want those out there who are going through what I am going through; to know that you are not alone out there. There is someone out here that understands what it means to have someone break their hearts and literally not know that they crashed the very ground that you walk on. I am going through this right now but I know that time will heal this. I know that it's so cliche to say that time heals all wounds. But I'm gonna go there. As I heal from this; I will keep you all posted.

  This is it for now. Goodnight. Good morning to some people out there. And expect the unexpected.

Love,

Dayna

 
 

  Dreams can be good but the can also be harmful to your very soul. But life moves on. Time can heal even the most smashed of hearts. Life moves on.

  Hearts get broken. People who may have seemed like the "one" turn out to have a crush on someone else.

  What I have learned recently is that just because you wanna cry and you never want to leave your room again; you can't just quit living your life. Cause trust me. He is not the only guy out there. It might hurt right now but the pain will eventually subside and you will see the bigger picture. You had to go through that to learn something. You might want something so bad that you can't see what is right in front of your face. I am not trying to make anyone feel bad about their lives. God knows that I don't want anyone to go through what I've gone through. So maybe this website is to reach out to those out there that really need it. Maybe I do this because I want to ease your pain. The only way that I can do that is to make sure that you know that you are not alone. I'm going through it too. My hearts been broken too. I wanna cry, I wanna pout. But what good would it do me? Instead I have decided to make something good out of this.

  Life moves on. And I could sit here and talk about broken hearts and broken promises but I am not looking for a sympathy card. And I really ought to get ready to go to class. Okay this is it for now.

  Stay amazing ya'll. Stay you! Stay True! And keep expecting the unexpected. Cause the unexpected happens when you least expect it. (I don't know why but that ending sound really corny to me this morning) (let's roll with it!"

Love,

  Dayna

 
 

  Life is a "cornucopia of disturbing concepts" (As the Kim Possible movie says about time traveling)

  Last night my friends and I played chocolate roulette. Meaning that we are some disgusting chocolate and the first one to give up and throw up would lose. Nobody lost but at the same time I am pretty sure that everyone lost. Okay so I woke up this morning sporting the worst stomach ache I had since I had cyclospora. No more chocolate for a long time or it literally might kill me. But wouldn't that be the way to go? Death by chocolate? Lol

  Don't believe the hype. It's not a good way to go. I still feel like I'm gonna die but I'm still here. But I haven't thrown up yet. I guess that makes me a winner.

  Life must go on. Sorry to cut this entry short but I have class in a little bit and I still gotta do the three S's. But for you get audiences I'll just say bathroom business. Lol

Talk to you amazing people later. You are awesome. Stay awesome. I'll be back soon. So until then; expect the unexpected.

Love,

Dayna