I can't believe that it has been this long since I last posted anything. Things have been pretty crazy around here though. I've been pretty crazy myself. Dark clothes and dark makeup and all that good stuff. Really I've just been off in my own little world. For the most part, when I get antisocial; I don't realize it until someone mentions that they wish that I would quit ignoring them or would at least talk to them once every so often. That's when I start thinking about my actions for the past few weeks and realize that they're right.
Scary Right?! It's a scream at how I've been living my life. Through a fog and not really focusing on anything around me except the tasks on hand. It's like that episode of Spongebob where Squidward makes Spongebob forget everything that he knows about except fine dining and breathing. Except mine is take care of dad, working, and breathing. It went on for a long time. And that is how it usually is. I'll slip into a funk and then somebody notices that I dropped off the face of the earth again.
But there is a light at the end of the tunnel. I'm not alone in this. And I have more of a support system than I ever did now. And even though I sometimes tend to drop off the face of the planet; I know that I am going to be okay.
Today was actually a good day. I was super productive even though I just wanted to be lazy all day. But as an adult with a job; I really can't afford to do that if I want to be able to pay the bills.
Sometimes Adulting is hard. But you know what they say right? Anything worth having is worth working for. And if you work for it that it means more. So, therefor I am doing the best that I can with what I have been given. And if that isn't what life is about, I don't know what it is.
Then again, I have never figured out what my purpose is. Right now, I'm a woman who works in a grocery store and tells everyone to stay awesome. I want to help people and make people smile. So I smile even though nobody has seen my actual smile while at work in a year. I still smile at people. And I tell them to have an awesome day.
I'm wondering if this is how I am meant to make a difference. Maybe if I can help one person to smile, then my life was worth it. I want to make a difference. I want to help people. And right now this is the way that I am doing it.
So, I will keep doing the best that I can do. And if I can make anyone feel better then it's all worth it.
I hope that ya'll have an awesome day! You are amazing! You are spectacular! And You are Beautiful!
I'm sorry that I haven't been around very much and I know that I could make you promises that I will keep coming back every day or every week. But we all know that at one point, I will probably disappear because life happens. I send my love to all of you and I want you to know that you are loved. You are special. You are a light in the world. Don't let anyone take away your light. Not even yourself. Because one smile can make a difference. One greeting can make a difference. You can make a difference. And I've always said that this blog was worth it if I could make a difference in anyone's life. In just one persons life. I hope that I've done that. I will try to be around more often.
Love All of You!
Stay Awesome,
And always remember to Expect the Unexpected!
Dayna
P.S. I just realized that I'm going to be 30 next month! In a literal months time! Yikes! To be honest I am not really all that worried about it.
Today was actually a good day. I was super productive even though I just wanted to be lazy all day. But as an adult with a job; I really can't afford to do that if I want to be able to pay the bills.
Sometimes Adulting is hard. But you know what they say right? Anything worth having is worth working for. And if you work for it that it means more. So, therefor I am doing the best that I can with what I have been given. And if that isn't what life is about, I don't know what it is.
Then again, I have never figured out what my purpose is. Right now, I'm a woman who works in a grocery store and tells everyone to stay awesome. I want to help people and make people smile. So I smile even though nobody has seen my actual smile while at work in a year. I still smile at people. And I tell them to have an awesome day.
I'm wondering if this is how I am meant to make a difference. Maybe if I can help one person to smile, then my life was worth it. I want to make a difference. I want to help people. And right now this is the way that I am doing it.
So, I will keep doing the best that I can do. And if I can make anyone feel better then it's all worth it.
I hope that ya'll have an awesome day! You are amazing! You are spectacular! And You are Beautiful!
I'm sorry that I haven't been around very much and I know that I could make you promises that I will keep coming back every day or every week. But we all know that at one point, I will probably disappear because life happens. I send my love to all of you and I want you to know that you are loved. You are special. You are a light in the world. Don't let anyone take away your light. Not even yourself. Because one smile can make a difference. One greeting can make a difference. You can make a difference. And I've always said that this blog was worth it if I could make a difference in anyone's life. In just one persons life. I hope that I've done that. I will try to be around more often.
Love All of You!
Stay Awesome,
And always remember to Expect the Unexpected!
Dayna
P.S. I just realized that I'm going to be 30 next month! In a literal months time! Yikes! To be honest I am not really all that worried about it.