I'm getting better. And life is getting better. It's time that I quit focusing on the negatives and start thinking about what is going positive. Positive thinking.
That reminds me that this next week is Thanksgiving. It's something that in the past that wasn't a positive for me. It was about what happened a few years ago that made me not very fond of the holiday. Three years ago I almost lost the most important man in my life. Three years ago my father had a heart attack. It wa the most stressful time period in my life. This happened the day after Thanksgiving. I remember going into the room after he had his bipass surgery. He was so pale and so weak and so vulnerable. I thought I was going to lose him.
For the past few years all I did was focus on the negative aspects that I associated with the holiday instead of just being thankful that I didn't lose him. I should've been grateful that I got to have another chance to be with my dad. I should've been grateful and thankful that I still got to see him and hug him and eat so much food that I wanted to pass into a food coma with him. That used to be a thing. You know that right after thanksgiving lunch when your belly is full and your sleepy from over eating. You know what I'm talking about. I don't need to explain that. The poison in all of this is that my attitude has been all kinds of messed up. I just associated the day with the bad that had happened to our family that I didn't see the positive.
I still have my dad. And that is what I am thankful for this thanksgiving. That and many other people that I am so lucky to have in my life.
This is a very personal post. Which seeing that you read the title and saw the picture that has the same title on it you already know. But that is okay. I don't really need to explain that to you though. You are smart enough to figure that out for yourself.
Things are going to be different around here. Things are going to get a heck of a lot more personal around here. I'm going to show you the real me. Real experiences from my life. Maybe some people will be able to relate to what I have to say. If not maybe the stories will just be fun stories that hold your interest for a few minutes and take your mind off whatever you have going on in your lives.
Speaking of which. . .that brings me to what happened today.
So so today I only ended up working an hour. So naturally I worked from 3 p.m. to 4:22 p.m. That's the way it always is. I never mind because for some reason I always seem to be a little bit perpetually late for everything. This didn't happen when I had my other car that could go the speed limit though. I love my blazer but dang. That thing only goes fifty five miles an hour. That means I have to leave thirty minutes early if I want to get to work. And trust me I try to get there on time. I try. . . I really do. It just seems that anything and everything that can get in the way of that happening always can and will get in the way. So I always seem to be at least ten minute late for work. And that is super annoying for the people that have to wait for me to get there so they can go home. I feel really bad but it doesn't seem to stop my perpetual lateness. I'm always late. So when other people come in late to relieve me I can't say anything because I am always late. Does that make sense? Yeah I know it makes sense. Not rocket science there. Lol
Okay sorry I got off on a tangent. What I was saying. I worked one hour today. And today for once in my weird life, I was actually on time to work. Only because I got to drive my moms Buick to work because seeing that it as only an hour she was going to sit in the car and wait for me to get off work. That way we could go to Pampa afterwards so she could get a few things from Walmart. I made my mom listen to Taylor Swifts newest cd. I found that I like it way more than I thought I did. It's beginning to grow on me. I think that by the time I got home tonight that my mother was starting to like the cd more too.
So we went to Pampa and we actually only got the three things we went there for. It was amazing. We never have done that before. It's like going to the grocery store and only buying one thing. Which for me seems to be pretty much impossible. It was awesome. We went to Walmart. And then we came back. And we only had a few fights on the way there and back. Which is a good day for us. I'm not saying that we don't get along. But the truth is we fight like mother and daughters tend to do. I just want to say that I am grateful for the mother that I have. Even though we don't see eye to eye, I know that when it matters she will always have my back.
Okay this post went a little personal but that's okay. I warned you that I was going to get personal. That was actually the title of the post. It's personal. Well it is getting really late. Or really early. It depends on how you want to look at it. I need to head to bed. It's been a pretty good day. But it's also been a really exhausting day. So I guess this is it.
Goodnigt, God bless, and Stay amazing!